Father have You found me here
my arms no longer contain veiny fear.
I have nothing to bring but all that I am
take this heart and make it clean once again.

Build me up from the inside out
break down all the walls, remove the doubt
Take the pieces I can't separate from
Let Your spirit lead and whisper Your love

close my eyes to the things that I want
remind me Your love sustains everything and all
bless the times when I turn all away
let my storms magnify all Your glory
let the storms remind me that I'm only man

send me a sign, if only a piece (if only some peace)
silence the haunting hollow that is my shell
send me a love that edifies Your body
send me a love that echoes Your love
send me a love so I can share my soul

I must say that I probably owe you an apology
but those two words won't let loose from my lips.
Can you riddle me this, if I'm the one causing you
all these troubles, then why do you insist we be friends?

I can't help but be sad
cause every bridge I meet, flames up and burns completely.
I only had good intentions
but the match was lit before we even assembled

listen if you're going to slam the gavel then give me due process
cause I'll tell you that I pleed the fifth.
So shoval the dirt into the hole
close the casket and head for the door.
And if I had a dime for everytime my words were misunderstood,
then I'd have enough money to leave and forget who you were

and I can't help but be sad
cause every bridge I meet, flames up and burns completely.
I only had good intentions
but the match was lit before we even assembled

she's my black tie, my black attire
I can't do anything right by her.
but can you riddle me this, if I'm the one causing you
all these troubles, then why do you insist we be friends?

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ah Baby you make me want to cry
walk to the bank, swim the shores
down to the river of pity and sighs

Ready to go off and forget this beach
no more water drowing these eyes
down to the river of pity and sighs

I need you to tell me the truth
were you ever going to care?
down the river I'll float on down

To many times have I created
allusions of grand and glorious things
I'll close my eyes and go to sleep

Take a walk to clear my mind
it's filled with words and nostalgic things
they say it never completely goes away

Another time I wish it would have been
a different person, a different heart and place
I'll walk the shores and burn all the time

Nothing ever is simple as it seems
the spirit of your love blows through the trees
the sand moves in perfect harmony

You never can have what won't do
I walk to find another you
the shore, the sand, the river
all are a part of a bigger dream

contradiction

I bet it never crossed your mind that you drive me insane
it only crosses my mind one thousand times a day.
I'd forget you in a moments whisper, if only it was that easy
but a pretty face and a lovely soul simply cannot be erased.

I hate that you leave me alone, God you drive me crazy
but I'd love to see you leave me to dance all alone.
You're a breathe of air that chokes me to death
I am the candle and with a slowly decending wick

I'm burning out, I'm burning out..

Oh but it can be a new day! the sun wakes up the sleeper
Be careful then how you live, not as the unwise
but make most of every opportunity, live like you're about to die

I don't consider us the same, play devil's advocate and put me to shame
You just say it's still the okay, I'll try to figure it out by going insane.
Pass me on the street and look away, hide a smile and shy to the side
It doesn't matter though cause..

it can be a new day! the sun wakes up the sleeper
Be careful then how you live, not as the unwise
but make most of every opportunity, live like you're about to die

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning. - The Perks of Being A Wallflower

Let it all out
Get it all out
Rip it out remove it
Don't be alarmed
When the wound begins to bleed
Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about
So scared we're going to lose it
Not knowing all along
That's exactly what we need

And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh, inconsistent me
Crying out for consistency

And you said I know that this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart then things will get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

And I'll let it be known
At times I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me
There is strength

And you promise me
That you believe
In time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me
There is strength

And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
And I'll try my best to just forget
That that man isn't me

Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for you
For you 
And I know you know
You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart and made it light

I can feel it now, I'm on the verge of something else.
Build up inside, pressure mounting pushing love outside.
I feel like a swirling storm, tossed to and fro.
an open wind on one thousand seas collecting the discontentment of one thousand
sailors and their burdens of unease.
a fervant tide of ebb and flow, a slowly sinking ship, helm destroyed by
unumbered wars.
wars of attrition and wars of masochistic fights.
battles of anger, battles of hurt and pride.
the ground still being held by what constitutes right,
no understanding or even a hint of light.
time only tells what times allows
you only forget when you let it go