sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole

So I find myself again at a precarious chapter in life. Not really precarious, I just wanted to use that word. I'm just extremely ready to begin a new chapter in my life, a chapter that I can fondly remember as my golden years. There are so many things that I'm having to trust God completely in, and I'm having such a hard time keeping up that amount of faith. My own well wishes are dictating my already complicated thought pattern, sometimes completely replacing my faith with bitterness and thoughts of impatience. It is so hard to want something, and have it look so good, and having to keep up the mindset that it might not be what God wants for me. It is crazy hard to continue trusting that God's will will be done, even if it doesn't coincide with what I want. It's hard to have a glance of what I have waited on, then continue waiting because God wants me to be patient. Patience is a virtue that kills me. I type all of this to say that this is a part of where I want my next chapter to go, but the patience of it tiring.

Oh and I'm tired of hearing how hard college is going to be. It's not as helpful as everyone thinks.

"Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown"

new day

Glorious song by the Robbie Seay Band. It's called New Day

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I'm gonna sing this song
To let you know that you're not alone
And if you're like me
You need hope, coffee, and melody
So sit back down
Let the world keep spinning ‘round
For yesterday's gone and today is waiting on you to show your face

It might not be
The prettiest thing that you'll ever see
But it’s a new day, oh baby, it’s a new day
And it might not look like
A beautiful sunrise
But it's a new day, oh baby, it’s a new day

I’m a pilgrim soul
I've traveled far and come back home
This land is hard and cold
For those who long to love
And I know it might seem
That the world is crumbling
But it’s me and you dancing in the kitchen at 2 am
And we're still alive

It’s the calm of the storm that comes blowing in
It’s the springtime saying I'm back again
The clouds that roll by
Crossing moonlight
Me and you love – everything's alright
Standing in the rain with nowhere to go
Laughing and we're spinning and I hope that you
Remember this day
For the rest of your life
Me and you love – everything’s gonna be alright

And it just might be
The prettiest thing that you'll ever see
It’s a new day
Oh baby, it’s a new day
If you look outside
To see a beautiful sunrise
It’s a new day