So I find myself again at a precarious chapter in life. Not really precarious, I just wanted to use that word. I'm just extremely ready to begin a new chapter in my life, a chapter that I can fondly remember as my golden years. There are so many things that I'm having to trust God completely in, and I'm having such a hard time keeping up that amount of faith. My own well wishes are dictating my already complicated thought pattern, sometimes completely replacing my faith with bitterness and thoughts of impatience. It is so hard to want something, and have it look so good, and having to keep up the mindset that it might not be what God wants for me. It is crazy hard to continue trusting that God's will will be done, even if it doesn't coincide with what I want. It's hard to have a glance of what I have waited on, then continue waiting because God wants me to be patient. Patience is a virtue that kills me. I type all of this to say that this is a part of where I want my next chapter to go, but the patience of it tiring.
Oh and I'm tired of hearing how hard college is going to be. It's not as helpful as everyone thinks.
"Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown"
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